My last company dinner with whole organisation colleagues

It is the annual dinner and meeting for the organisation I am working with. And it will apparently be my last meeting and dinner with all the colleagues. Break the news of me resignation to few outstation colleagues that I am pretty close with. I was given a choice actually. I do not have to attend the meeting if I do not want to. But because I am resigning and there are few outstation colleagues I wanted to meet before I leave, I choose to attend. and I did not regret with my choice =)
Every year, i would not drink on the annual dinner because I kinda have solid excuse that I am driving. So I usually dont drink. But this year, because I am leaving soon, yeah.. I took a glass and I drink with few colleagues that I really going to miss.

dearest sisters in the workplace



My Idol



sweet little girl



one of the chopstick sister

 

with the new FM



I kinda did not want to start posting about my feeling right now. Maybe when the time come, I shall post what I wanted to say to each and everyone. For now, I just wanted to say thanks for loving me. I cant feel more bless to have all of you around me for my 1st job. And this dinner is definitely one of the dinner I will never forget =D 

Bryan's airport date

It was suppose to be a surprise for him but, having him taking the business flight and his schedule is pretty secretive, we decide not to risk. Wendy asked him if he wanted a private Limo and we offered to sent him off to the airport. I spend the whole day touching up the so call project for him. Then I meet up with Wendy and Andrea before heading to Bryan's house. Must be sad for the parents to see him going off to Korea. Probably it is alright this round since he will only be going for 5 weeks and later, I dunno when i will be seeing this guy again.
Anyway, the atmosphere was pretty emo and I started the conversation by asking if he is sad. And he said he was when he having dinner but was all cheered up when he saw all of us. Which I hope is a compliment =D We are trying to hide Cassandra from the picture since she is going with Jovan. So we decided to let Cassandra surprise him a little. And guess what, he kinda admit that he was checking at the back of the car to see if Cassandra is hidding and was disappointed when he could not see her =D
Well, his check in was super serious fast. Mayb because it is 1st class. It took him less than 10mins to finish everything and we head for a tea. He picked secret recipe and intelligent me picked a 6 seated table. and there he say I am greedy for having 6 seated table when we only have 4 people. And Cassandra show up and he finally know why i picked 6 seated table =D
Consider he pretty sayang me lar. Eventhough they dont have chocolate cake and he know i do not eat nuts, he insists getting me one and ask me to remove the nuts.
Been teasing him since friday asking if he have farewell gifts for me and he remain silent and this time before i give him my gift, I told him for the last time, "you really have nothing for me?" Then I bring out the photo folio telling him this is the last one and it is going to be his birthday present as well.. and this round I tease him asking him if he feeling guilty now for not getting me any farewell gift. According to Andrea and Cassandra, he is very touched and suddenly he asked me if he can give me a hug and it kinda make my tear foaming. Dangerous.. Hahaha..

so call "huggie" from Bryan



He with my "final Project"



Group photo @ Secret Recipe, KLIA



Last one before he fly off..

 So must for everything. I hope he will do well there in Korea and will survive there. Erm, there is no way that I will forget having such a boss and I believe he have set a pretty high benchmark for my future boss. And he will be my aim on how I should be a boss in the future. It might not be easy cause I think my EQ is slightly much lower than him. Hahaha. Take good care of urself and I will see you in 5 weeks time? May god bless all of us =) Make us proud and I am looking forward for our next meeting, my postcard, your prince and my Korea Trip..

my special project for Bryan's farewell

Not sure if I will still meet a boss like him. But for sure I have set my requirement of being a good boss high because of him. Think that he would not have save any of our photos.. well, because he is a guy? hahaha.. and there I prepared a photo folio for him.


Front page



1st page



2nd page

 

3rd page




last page

 As we are sending him at the airport, this photo folio I decide to giv him at the airport =D

Final Decision

After feeling complicated and unsure for few days, finally I am pretty sure with what I want. Probably having option is good, to let me know clearer on the decision and path I really wish to go. After all the up and down for the week, I went into Bryan's room and have my final chat with him I think. Pretty much I told him everything. Telling him that I am really looking forward and excited to try out and venture my new job in the new company. And that my decision is definitely firm on the day I tendered my resignation letter. I also make it clear to him that I am not waiting for company to counter offer me and he said he know and that idea did not cross his mind. (I make sure to let him know that Yi Ping is thinking the other way). Then i told him that I become indecisive because I know what he have done for me and the only reason if I would consider to pull back my resignation letter would definitely be him. Telling him that I really do trusted him and that I am sure he have done a lot in planning for my future here but still the unsecure feeling will forever be there even if they tell me that my future here is pretty secure. I told him what Lynn told me. That this company does not belong to him and that every decision will still have to be finalised by the board members or etc and that things might or might not turn out to be how he have planned. I told him that I really love working here but let me go out and explore to see the world. When I have gain enough knowledge and experience and if I really love here, I will come back. And I think he is sincere with me. He told me one thing that I need to know to move on, that "Success does not only limit in this company".. which pretty motivate me to move on and explore what is waiting for me outside =D
I am feeling much relief after making the final decision. At least it is something I wanted to try doing. It is a big jump and I am pretty sure I will learn a lot from it =D May I grow faster and learn well too..

Counter Offer

I was pretty firm on leaving the company until Merisca told me about the plans Bryan have for me in Indonesia. Not sure if Yi Ping actually decided to counter offer me because her plans to get 2 additional Headcounts failed. If she does think that way, she does make me feel bad.
Anyway, I have spoken to her this morning and she feel that I am waiting for her to counter offer. Hence she decide to talk to both of her bosses, Bryan and Mr Wong. She knows I am handing over my offer letter because i need to leave office about 30mins earlier to get to the new office on time. Hence, she make the assumption that i am late in submitting my offer letter is because I am waiting for her to counter offer me. Well, if I do decided to stay behind, it is definitely not going to be because of what she have planned for me. She just did not want to start all over again guiding a new person.
Bryan speak to me once I am back from lunch and he told me about the counter offer and I demanded an answer from him and he acted as 2 different person when I tender my resignation letter and when he is talking to me right then. He explained that he did not counter offer me on the day I tender my resignation letter is because he think that I am really confident and determine to leave and that the offer is really good but somehow he think I am a little shaky today and he think he worth trying to counter offer me to see what I really wanted. He said it is good to have option where I can picked and he told me that he actually have plans for me. I am pretty honest with him and I told him I know the plans.
He said that it is only fair if I have the chat with him and Mr Wong as Mr Wong will be the one taking over the position in the future. Pretty much I can say that the whole conversation was solely conducted by Mr Wong and I was pretty much in deep shit because I really did not know what I really want at that point of time. Giving the options I am having in my hand, an Assistant Manager with 50% increment and title remain and increment much lesser than 50% add on with oversea assignment. Damn.. it is seriously hard to make my decision and I really wanted to stay at that point of time, but having to report to Yi Ping pretty much was the only thing that hold me back. What Mr Wong said have his point, that I will eventually reach Asst Manager in the same company with all the planning Bryan have for me but it will take a little time as they are growing me step by step.
I have to eventually make up my mind quick. And I am pretty emotional at that point of time and I needed someone to talked to and I've called Lynn. Having her there to evaluate things for me. I dunno. Maybe I am scare of stepping out of the company because the management is now recognise my ability and capabilities and it is pretty much a waste if i decide to let go of everything. And what Mr Wong and Bryan offering to me is really really tempting. Partially according to Lynn, I am feeling guilty leaving after knowing what Bryan have done for me. And mayb I do, so after talking to Lynn.. I am much clearer. I know Bryan set my career path here but he no longer will be around and Mr Wong is taking over and the company does not belong to Bryan and that all decision will still be depending on the company and how bosses fight for us. Not that i do not trust Mr Wong, but mayb I should venture out and have a look at how the world is before i decide which company I wanted to settle in. Hence, that night itself I made my decision that I want to leave
So much for a counter offer and I think lots of my brain cells died because of this. LOL..

The day we present him our farewell gifts

We had our farewell dinner with him last week. And since they say they did not want to giv the farewell gift on the same day, i delayed my card. We wanted to give him on his last day working in Roche. However, he being Bryan always being so considerate think that we should not be doing this in front of the new Finance Manager, He requested us to give him before the new Finance Manager come and hence, I have to rush his card during my weekend.



the front page of the card i prepared for him - size of 2 A3



It was nice to see that he is touched with what i have done. I thought that he would not like it as i myself feel that it is too huge after i finally finished them. But seeing his respond, have not expected that. Well, am totally not sure if he sincerely mean it or he was acting out, but I am believing that he mean it. (Please dont tell me even if you guys find out he actually acting )
He was touched and I am touched with his one phrase when he was looking at that card.. that the card is better than anything on the shelf. And it kinda feel worthy for me to spend my whole night not sleeping completing the card for him. He does look teary that day.. Losing his coolness. Sincerely we wish you all the best =D

group photo

We have dinner on the same night welcoming our new Finance Manager too. It is a weird feeling for sure =D


us at the dinner place

 But sincerely welcome the new Finance Manager onboard =)

Birthday celebration with besties

Usually I will not be date on my actual birthday. Weird yes but that is always the case. Anyway, this year my Convent Bestie decided to celebrate my birthday with me despite me not having any plans. We head to Sri Petaling for dinner. Well, at 1st i suggest to go for the Japanese buffet but then they did not want to go i think. End up we went for a chinese restaurant and they ordered abalone for my birthday. It is really nice of them.



Dish of the day: Abalone



something diff - like kangkung but much bigger and giant..

Assam Fish

2 flavoured prawns

I demand to have dessert after the dinner. Hence, we went to snowflake. I have been longing to have one. Not sure why. But that day i know i am pretty moody. Not sure if it is because of Bryan. Hahaha. Have been staying home the whole day preparing his farewell card.



Snowflake: Soya Series - Sweet potatoes, pearls and Barley

 After that, i head home to finish Bryan's card. And I did not mention that Yen Min is back for holiday for about 2 weeks right? She made me my birthday cake. But i feel bad cause I really do not have time for her as i need to rush the card as they requested me to present the card to him like tomorrow? Hahaha.. So i have to sent her home after seeing me for 30mins.


My birthday cake from Yen Min =D



Birthday Eve

Dinner + K session during bday eve

This year I spent my eve of birthday with one of my Uni bestfriend. Well, she have been disappear from my life since she have herself a bf. Well, i would not really get mad at her since I know what kind of person she is. She bring me to a charity dinner claiming that it is good for me to do some charity on my dinner to bless me =D
We went to a charity dinner named "Great Happiness Dinner with Ven Karma Migur Dorge Rinpoche and Ven Nuptul Tenpei Nyima Rinpoche". Both "sifu" come from Nepal. It was a pretty unique dinner as it is serve in vegetarian and it was like a wedding dinner course meal.
We met a lady during the dinner. She is an easy going on for sure and there is it. Fate bring us together. We would not know what happen in the future but for sure, people always say, it is always better to have a friend rather than having enemy am I right?


meet my new friend, Elaine =D

I wanted to watch movie after the dinner. But instead of going for a movie, we end up went for a K session. And it was fun. I  did not sing K for a long time. More over, having only 3 people in the K room. It is rare nowaday. Hahaha

Birthday celebration with colleague

 This is a dinner I merajuk with Bryan that he have to join me. I told him that he must go on the day he outburst the news that he is leaving us to Korea and he agreed. Most if us sit Wendy's new car for the 1st time. Wand and Ngu meet us there. We went to the steamboat + seafood restaurant in Balakong. I tell Wang and Ngu about my resignation. Wang sincerely asked Bryan if he will let me go if he is still here with the company and he said ya. Cause it is a really good offer.
That night, my phone was consficated from me because they accidentally discuss about my birthday present on the group watapps.

on my request all of them doing the "peace" sign

group picha

Finance team =D

Birthday board from them =D

After the dinner, we went back to office and have chatime in Bryan's room. Should be for the last time. All this going to be with me for awhile. I hope the new company colleague will be great too. Finger crossing =D I have a great time with all of them.. Memories that i will carry with me when i leave the company

Feeling unsure on my decision to leave

Because am leaving, I communicate with few colleagues that are working in different countries. Was chatting with Merisca that I found out things that i should have not know. She asked when will I be going over to Indonesia and i am pretty stunned. I asked why did she say so and she tell me about the CO project that Bryan have recommended to the Finance Manager in Indonesia and the FM in Indonesia is pretty interested to have me over. According to Merisca, Bryan have been speaking highly about me. Telling the FM there that I am very fast, organised and have ownership. That is when I feel bad. Knowing that he still do things for me despite him leaving Malaysia soon. I did not know what to say but I am touched to have a boss that look after me the way Bryan did. Despite me is just a small executive in his team, he look after me as in i mean something. Thanks Bryan.. for everything..

My decision

I think he know i am worry. The day before i asked to talk to him, he approached me and asked when will i be finishing my ACCA. That time, i know he think i am worry about my future here in the company. Many times i try to hint to him that i am leaving. The day before (tuesday), we have a drink right after our department dinner. He told me that he want to see me in roche when he come back 5 years later and that i have sell myself to the company. I did not want to give any obvious hint. 

The day when i finally tell him my decision, he is shocked. I went into his room and I sat down telling him that I know I do not need to tell him any of my decision because I dont report to him but I wanted to tell him because I feel that is the right thing to do. I told him about my decision of leaving the company and he asked me why and where. He showed his concern and he heard my package and feel that it is really a good opportunity that i should go for it. He encourage me and tell me he have nothing better to offer to make me stay behind. He just let me know that I have to grow up fast. So I tendered that day to him and also my boss. She did not asked me further, for she may have see this coming and she did not counter offer me to stay behind. Anyway, I am not disappointed she did not try to ask me stay. Bryan explains to me the reason he counter offer Andrea and the reason he did not counter offer me. I am not angry he did not counter offer me, for i know the company cant offer me better package that what i have already had on hand. So, yeah.. I decided to leave.

A new hope

Before this, i always feel i will only leave the company when i finally finish my ACCA this year. Until Bryan announce that he is leaving, i feel insecure and i start to look for alternatives outside. I am definitely not rushing. Just feel like giving myself a chance outside since i think to start in a new company and to start in the same company feel the same to me now since i will have my direct manager make decision on me and i will have new Finance Manager coming in where he did not know me at all. Coincident, Vincent's company have a vacancy for Assistant Finance Manager. Well, having me so fresh, i would not have think that they will give me a chance and I am not so desperate that time but all i was thinking was, who care.. why not giving it a try since i am losing my boss anyway and i sent in my resume. Shocking enough is they called me the next day asking for interview. I prepared myself and i went and they called to tell me they want me on the same day. Having 50% increment and a big jump from an executive to an Assistant Finance Manager.. Why not? And i know i am pretty clear i did this not entirely because Bryan is leaving but also because the offer is really worth me trying. Suddenly, i feel there is hope on my career path again

Feeling insecure

Today, Bryan announce to us that he is leaving us for a better future. I am happy for him, but somehow, heart feel sourish. I am worry at that point of time because i put all my hope on him and having him leaving the company make me feel alone and expose to danger, like i would not have anyone backing me again. I feel shaky. I cried that night to sleep.. That is because i know i am losing a good boss and i no longer can see my career path..

3 Idiots

How many of us will be thinking and living our life like Rancho in the movie? I bet, there is only one in a million and the remaining should be like "silencer" i think. All they do is compare themselves with their coursemates, friends, to see who actually are more successful. which categories am i belong to? I think there is once i live like silencer. I will compare myself with people and i feel bad when i think i cant catch up or live better like others. If i were to say i dont have silencer in me anymore, i am lying. Probably the attitude reduce, but the competition is still there. There is always this saying that we are suppose to live our life for ourselves. Not for others. How many of us can actually do that
But when we grow up, our thinking change. I am no longer the little girl when i am in primary school, secondary school, matriculation college nor the little girl in University. Of course, beside my real friends, the rest of the people in the world that know me, the 1st thing when they ask when they see me is, where am i working? How much am I earning? And of course they will start to tell the remaining how well they are doing and they will start to compare how many properties have you buy. For me, if not because of my parents, i would not have buy the house. Life isn just about property or the fame or how high you are going to climb. It is going to be your satisfaction and how meaningful you have lead your life. Different people will have different interpretation of the word meaningful. For me, i do not mind living simple. (which mean, i only get to buy branded once in a while or get tempted with the over-priced clothing once in a blue moon but as long as i have enough to spend that i do not have to worry, i think i am fine. That is the simple life i am referring to)
For me, having property is just a dead piece of paper or building that belong to me. I would rather spend that amount of money travelling, learning and getting knowledge around the world. I would like to see the world with my own eye. It would be great to travel, to learn things that i cannot get from books and to get to know people from other countries and races. This experiences and knowledge is something that we aren going to learn in the book.
Of course i've always had this thought. This movie just make me realized, i should not just think, but I should start planning and implement my thought. It is never too late. Let see in 10 years times. What have i done. This posting is going to be the start to pen down my journey of life.